For anyone who comes across this post and reads it, I would just like to say that these posts are just a stream of my thoughts and struggles. I like to write them out because they give me encouragement for times ahead. I hope some part of it may give joy to at least one person who may read it. Thank you for reading!
As graduation is promptly approaching, I can’t help but dread the end of the summer when I must say goodbye to my comfortable life here at home, and venture out to the wonderful land of Wheaton. My incredible friends who love me in spite of all my faults, my parents who constantly serve and love me as Jesus did, my amazing church which strengthened me in my relationship with the Lord the past eighteen years… All these things I will greatly miss. God has blessed me in ways that I still cannot fathom. But while these things are so good, He has even greater things to come.
I love adventure, meeting new people, and venturing out to places unknown to me. It’s not the new blessings that I have trouble coping with, it is the act of leaving behind the old blessings that is such a struggle for me. Though I will still see my high school friends every once in a while, come home to my family on breaks, and visit my childhood church, God has new friends and places of fellowship for me up in Wheaton. As I get closer and closer to college, I keep having to cope with the fact that leaving behind the old is inevitable… But the Lord always gives me hope in this, because He has filled in me a joy that can only come from Him. This joy is a joy that transcends the comfort of staying with the old. I am joyful because I am going to grow. A lot. And growth/ progression cannot happen without change. Bittersweet at the moment, but change (in the eternal perspective) is so rich.
Everyday we are a new creation in Christ. As we grow in Him daily, we are constantly changing. So this next step of my life, moving the a place where basically hell freezes over… It’s good, and God has had this part of my life planned since the beginning of the universe.
Romans 12:2 is a great source of encouragement for me in this time of so much change. While I have moments of sorrow for leaving my loved ones behind, God is changing my heart in the process.
“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:2
The Lord is changing us and refining us to fit more into His image. Change is necessary. Day after day He is shaping us and we are being strengthened for the goal of eternity with Him! Just typing these words right now is getting me so hyped for the days to come. I am going to be praising Jesus and living forever an eternity filled with inexplicable joy! So let’s get a move on and work towards the expansion of God’s kingdom, because all change that happens in our life is for God’s kingdom.
And even when change seems bad at the moment, we have to remember that the Lord has His way with our lives. He is the God of the universe, and He does all things for His good purpose. So we must have faith that the bittersweet changes in life are all aimed for the glory of God and his kingdom. I am super pumped for college. Can’t wait to meet people who I will know for all eternity. Boo to the Yah.
“Someday, every knee’s going to bow. Knowing how things end up in His plan helps me figure out where to begin with mine.” -Bob Goff